rejoice.

“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” -Philippians 4:4-7, Good old Philippians.

To be honest this week has been the most difficult week I have had in a long time. It was as though everything that could go wrong did, or at least that’s how I felt. However, God know what he was doing.

On Tuesday no one showed up for Refuge. I sat there frustrated, angry, annoyed, sad, and defeated. It seemed as though this was just another thing to add to the list of recent disappointments. However, God knew what he was doing. As I waited with my other volunteer we began talking. To be honest talking was the last thing I wanted to do. But nonetheless we began to chat. As the time went by and we realized that it was definite that no young people were coming our conversation went deeper. We prayed and talked about God, the church, and life. God knew what he was doing. As we prayed together I could feel a huge weight being lifted. You see, I  lately I have become a perpetual worrier. I hate it. My anxiousness and doubt have undermined my trust in God.  Whether it’s worry out finances, flights home, or even food, my worry has made me doubt the provision of the Lord. After praying together it was like my eyes were opened again. I was of the fact that God is faithful, even when I’m not. Even when I was lost in worry he was there. He knew what he was doing. I realized that what I needed was to pause and offer up everything to Him. A night that began as a failure ended up being the biggest blessing. God is pretty amazing.

Lord, thank you for being faithful even when I’m not.