more.

This year God has taught me so much. My eyes have been opened. I desire more. More Christ, more love, more grace, more. I wish I could find the words to describe this feeling, the closest word I can think of is clarity in a complex way.

Recently at cluster we watched a documentary on Jackie Pullinger. Her story is incredibly inspirational and challenging. For those of you who, like myself, had never heard of her let me catch you up. When she was 22, Jackie Pullinger wanted to become a missionary, but no society would take her on. So she went on her own to Hong Kong and began a pioneering work among drug addicts and Triad gang members. She had no support from a church and only £8 in her bank account yet by God’s power she was able to establish an organization which continues to work with drug addicts, prostitutes, and the homeless. It’s incredible. You can read more about her here. 

Jackie’s story has pressed on my heart a lot of what God has been placing on my heart this year. God has definitely been stirring up a fire and desire for more. It’s difficult to put it all into coherent sentences. It feels like I have fireworks in my heart and mind. I’m encouraged, frustrated, and challenged. And at the same time I’m undescribably excited, ideas and thoughts are overflowing.  I don’t want to settle for luke-warm Christianity, I don’t want to embrace comfortable church, I can’t turn my back on the broken, I want to live love, I want something deeper, I desire more. More than mediocrity, more than fine, more than just living.

I don’t know what my life will look like after July 27th but I know that God is preparing me for something. I’m excited to step into a new adventure.